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I hope the public message conveys what I’m trying for: grace and civility and good will. It’s certainly not how I feel. But I’ve known since they told me on the 6th that there truly was nothing I can do about it. They hedged it around with thanks and pretty words, but it was the clearest possible “Your services are no longer required.” one could imagine.
I - well. I don’t have another fight like this spring in me. And, as Raz has pointed out, some of what they’ve been insisting on including is only going to get worse. More difficult. (I don’t know how much of the discussion you’ve seen about the Muggle management sessions, or some of the other challenges. I did what I could, but I couldn’t prevent their inclusion entirely, as inappropriate as I think it is for 16 year olds.)
I’ve hoped for so long that I could moderate some of the worst of it and that if they replaced me, it would be with someone inclined to balance. Or at least practical good sense. Clearly, I’ve failed entirely on the latter, and I wonder about the former as well.
The oversight board took no chances, either. They made the quite blunt threat that if I were difficult, they’d do their best to ensure Raz and I didn’t get permission. I swear it wouldn’t have changed my choice not to fight but I hate they think it might have.Or that you might.
She insists on a clean split, which gives me the shudders - there are so many details she clearly hasn’t grasped yet. And I hate even more that we’ll have to bear with her at school. She keeps trying to give me advice, and unlike you both, of all the wrong sorts.
And again, apologies for not telling you sooner: they gave me an explicit instruction not to tell anyone. (I told Raz, of course, and I did warn Miss Perks on Thursday so she’d have time to brace herself.) Last thing I’ve not been telling you that needed telling, I promise.
I - well. I don’t have another fight like this spring in me. And, as Raz has pointed out, some of what they’ve been insisting on including is only going to get worse. More difficult. (I don’t know how much of the discussion you’ve seen about the Muggle management sessions, or some of the other challenges. I did what I could, but I couldn’t prevent their inclusion entirely, as inappropriate as I think it is for 16 year olds.)
I’ve hoped for so long that I could moderate some of the worst of it and that if they replaced me, it would be with someone inclined to balance. Or at least practical good sense. Clearly, I’ve failed entirely on the latter, and I wonder about the former as well.
The oversight board took no chances, either. They made the quite blunt threat that if I were difficult, they’d do their best to ensure Raz and I didn’t get permission. I swear it wouldn’t have changed my choice not to fight but I hate they think it might have.
She insists on a clean split, which gives me the shudders - there are so many details she clearly hasn’t grasped yet. And I hate even more that we’ll have to bear with her at school. She keeps trying to give me advice, and unlike you both, of all the wrong sorts.
And again, apologies for not telling you sooner: they gave me an explicit instruction not to tell anyone. (I told Raz, of course, and I did warn Miss Perks on Thursday so she’d have time to brace herself.) Last thing I’ve not been telling you that needed telling, I promise.
