End of the year

[alt_sinistra]

It seems impossible that we’re at the end of the year - so much has happened. I know that many will be sorry to see friends and acquaintances from among our guests go, but I’m sure we’ll all enjoy the feast tonight, before seeing the contingents off tomorrow.

At the same time, I do look forward to the summer activities, and then to what next year might bring. And I’ve had a few questions about the summer.

CCF: 4th and 5th years will be participating the same weeks - July 27th to August 18th. You’ll have separate housing and facilities, and largely separate training, but will be working with the same instructors, and sharing some special activities. More information will be sent home as soon as we’ve finished our committee meetings - you should expect an owl June 27th or 28th with all the details.

Students entering 2nd and 3rd year should find information about your trips waiting when you arrive home.

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Re: Private message to Raz

[alt_rabastan]

I'm not going to go through the details of what happened because they were not, in fact, new or novel. It hasn't happened recently, no, but this isn't the first time I've been cruciated, or have had to watch it be inflicted on others. Not the first execution I've seen, either (if you hadn't yet put together the truth of Travers death- well, there you have it).

So all that's left is that I failed Harry. I failed that kid, and it's all that I can do. No matter how much I try to help him or think I am, I can never, ever do right by him.

And really, I'm not sure there's anything to talk about, regarding that. I don't want to be convinced that I'm over-reacting or looking at it the wrong way, because I know that I'm not. I don't want to be comforted and told that I did the best I can, because I don't and I haven't.

So you see, there's just no talking through this.

Don't worry. In time I'm manage to push it to the back of my psyche along with all the other dark things. I'm very good at that. I'll be back to normal soon enough.

And thank you for caring, love, but this is... no. There's nothing to say.

Re: Private message to Raz

[alt_sinistra]

Oh, love.

First. Thank you. That helps. I'd much rather know what to avoid. The uncertainty, worrying I might get it wrong, was making me wary of saying anything at all. And that's a fast route to brittle society witch. Neither of us wants that, right?

I had guessed about Travers. The obituary was subtle enough, but I'd enough other pieces to add it all up. (You. Something Narcissa didn't say. A few other things.)

On Harry, all I'll say is what I've said before. I'm glad you care so for him, his well-being. More people should. And glad he cares for you, too.

Right. Onward.

You know where I am if you want a walk, or a fly, or anything else along those lines. No talking required. And I've a better idea how to go on.

Re: Private message to Raz

[alt_rabastan]

Oh, I don't know, I might do well with a brittle society witch. Someone to dominate me, boss me around, keep me in line, that sort of thing. Seems I work well with those types, since I have a history of it.

This is not me wallowing. It's a mere statement of truth.

I know where to find you, but forgive me if I don't just yet. I need to be alone with myself. When I'm with you I start thinking I'm the man you think I am to see myself the way you see me, and you're far too generous, you know. Again, just a statement of truth.

I can tell you that I do know many others must feel this helpless, to some degree. There's a bizarre sort of comfort in that. But only just.

I'll be back soon, promise.

Re: Private message to Raz

[alt_sinistra]

I'd rather share than rule, love. But we could discuss further, if you really want.

On the rest, I do hope I see the best in you. Lover's prerogative to insist I'm being fair. Though given how your family treats you, would you know it to see it?

Take the time you need. Truly. I've more than enough up the tower to occupy me for a bit.