Private message to Narcissa Malfoy
Jul. 26th, 2012 10:56 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
alt_sinistraNarcissa -
Please bear with my incoherence, but this is so odd to write. You’re the first person I’ve told.
Raz proposed last night, and of course I said yes. (He completely surprised me, and is rather smug about that. I’m delighted. And overwhelmed.) We both hope you’ll be pleased.
I’m also well aware that Our Lord’s permission is both essential and not at all certain.I can’t bear to think what happens if
Raz thought he’d wait until after the Freedom Day celebrations are over before asking for time at Court and that makes sense to me. But I’ve no idea what to expect, or if I can do anything to improve our chances or, well. Any of it.
I’d welcome whatever you could offer. Advice. Support. Information. Ways not to fret.Recommended potions for nerves. I need to be out at the CCF site much of the next three weeks, but I’m expecting to sleep at Spence, and to be able to get free for a few hours most days.
I’m also bursting to tell my family and a few friends, but it must be better to wait until we know what Our Lord’s answer is. But I equally don’t want them to find out (or guess) before that, and I’ve no idea how to balance things. (Though I suppose keeping busy will help.)
You were so clear in April and since that you wish me - us - well. And now I’m terrified it’s all going to implode and disappear, and I’d do anything for it not to. I’m so grateful for your advice and friendship so far, and I’m desperate to get the next part right. For Raz, even more than for me.
Aurora
Please bear with my incoherence, but this is so odd to write. You’re the first person I’ve told.
Raz proposed last night, and of course I said yes. (He completely surprised me, and is rather smug about that. I’m delighted. And overwhelmed.) We both hope you’ll be pleased.
I’m also well aware that Our Lord’s permission is both essential and not at all certain.
Raz thought he’d wait until after the Freedom Day celebrations are over before asking for time at Court and that makes sense to me. But I’ve no idea what to expect, or if I can do anything to improve our chances or, well. Any of it.
I’d welcome whatever you could offer. Advice. Support. Information. Ways not to fret.
I’m also bursting to tell my family and a few friends, but it must be better to wait until we know what Our Lord’s answer is. But I equally don’t want them to find out (or guess) before that, and I’ve no idea how to balance things. (Though I suppose keeping busy will help.)
You were so clear in April and since that you wish me - us - well. And now I’m terrified it’s all going to implode and disappear, and I’d do anything for it not to. I’m so grateful for your advice and friendship so far, and I’m desperate to get the next part right. For Raz, even more than for me.
Aurora
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Date: 2012-07-26 05:05 pm (UTC)Do forgive me not responding right away; I saw your message while I was with several witches from the DoP and I had no desire to give Madam Millingham-Kennilworthy any sort of hint as to the news. You're right: For the moment, discretion is essential. Though of course, you must be simply buzzing with excitement.
Knowing Razzer, I suspect your family (or at least your parents) may already have a suspicion. I'm sure, in any case, that it would be understandable to tell them of your intent, so long as it is impressed that the happy event awaits Our Lord's approval before it can be officially acknowledged. Then at least, you shall have the support of your loved ones, whatever the outcome.
But I am confident He will give His blessing, especially taking into consideration all you have done with the Young Protectors' League. I do agree with Rabastan that it will be best for all to wait until the holiday has passed and you have time to prepare the petition. I believe that the successful conclusion of the demonstrations at Freedom Day may do well to curry His favour with you even further. I should think Professor McGonagall could also be counted on for a reference in your support and perhaps Dominic? I'm not sure how well you know the Selwyns, as none of theirs are at Hogwarts quite yet. Stephen may be willing. We heard this morning that his ward has been named one of Gryffindor's Prefects; I may be wrong but I sense your hand in the assignments? Well, regardless, he is sure to be proud of what he's accomplished with young Mr Finnigan and thus disposed to magnanimity.
As for not fretting, my dear, I've told you before that you've already overcome the most difficult of obstacles: Razzer himself. The rest will sort itself, I'm sure.
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Date: 2012-07-26 05:43 pm (UTC)I admit I've been between delight and nerves all morning, after last night's sheer exuberance. Raz did the thing wonderfully from my point of view, and he himself has never been the difficulty for me. I am rather startled at how much has changed in less than a year, mind you.
I will see if I can catch my parents and tell them privately. I know they'll be delighted, and they've been so careful to neither press nor assume all along. (They were very pleased when Raz insisted on having the immediate family over last week, and I'm glad to say that went well.)
Minerva is a bit of a puzzle. She's said not one word against us dating, but at the same time I don't know whether she's pleased or simply tolerant, and I have to admit it creates some complications for her. I've only met the Selwyns briefly - at the Yule Ball and a few other events.
Mr Rosier, well, that's a little tricky. The YPL committee made the decision not to select his ward as one of the counsellors this year after a great deal of conversation. It made things a little distant, even while he and I were working through some of the arrangements for Mr Finch-Fetchley's change in circumstance. And while I'm sure Seamus will do a fine job as prefect, I'm only lightly consulted in such decisions, except for Hufflepuff, where Pomona does talk things through with me in more detail. So while I do indeed hope it's put him in a pleasant mood, perhaps Raz might make more headway there?
I do feel a little better with something concrete to think about. Thank you for that. And I'm sure settling into the CCF weeks will help as well, to at least keep me distracted.
I hope you're enjoying your last day with Draco before he's off again for weeks, as well. That is rather one of the difficulties of the YPL commitments, isn't it? That the students are off for the summer as well as during the year.
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Date: 2012-07-27 01:33 am (UTC)Razzer might do well to seek out Stephen, at that. You know that Raz and Evan were very close, at one time.
But as for Draco, forgive me if I laugh, but you ought to spend enough time around teenagers to understand that at his age, parents are low on the list of people with whom he wishes to spend time! But he has asked for a private family holiday once he returns from the CCF, and I take that as a good sign he has not forsaken us altogether.
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Date: 2012-07-27 01:52 am (UTC)As to Draco - I'm sure you're no less adept than my parents were at insisting on some time together, whatever the teenage inclinations. Raz did mention the plans for the trip (and that Harry was looking forward to the idea), of course. And by the end of the CCF weeks, I'm quite sure they'll need something relaxing: the schedule's more than a little grueling.
I did manage to catch my parents: they came briefly for tea. They were most pleased, and of course promise not to breathe a word. Far better not to tell my siblings yet: most of them would be fine, but two wouldn't, and I'd rather be fair and do them all at once.