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alt_sinistraI've been reading back, and thinking about some things that you should probably know. I talked to Remus about some of them, before he swore me in.
First, I want to list out resources, for everyone, so they know, because there's some things that might be helpful. But every draft I make comes back to mentioning Tosha somewhere, and I've read enough to know just how difficult that's going to be for some people. And for me to talk about as fairly as I want.
Second, you should know that it's not me being modest, when I talk about not knowing what I can do.
Raz and I, the binding charms we chose, they're very hard on the surviving partner. We chose them for good reason, but that's not much help right now. I can lay out what it means, but mostly I need you to not expect me to be better than I am. More together than I am.
Third, there's some things you might want to know. Pandora's Box, that was Tosha and Barty and Raz, I'm near certain. And you should know, the rite I did the location for, the original sacrifice was supposed to be Seamus Finnigan, not his mother. (I had no idea it was her, or what they made him do until this past week.)
And there's a thing you should know. A number of the Council can't cast the Patronus properly. Reliably. Tosha couldn't until this past year. Raz had years of his life he couldn't. Not filled with happy memories, a lot of them. And there's ways that underlies everything they do. Everything they value.
First, I want to list out resources, for everyone, so they know, because there's some things that might be helpful. But every draft I make comes back to mentioning Tosha somewhere, and I've read enough to know just how difficult that's going to be for some people. And for me to talk about as fairly as I want.
Second, you should know that it's not me being modest, when I talk about not knowing what I can do.
Raz and I, the binding charms we chose, they're very hard on the surviving partner. We chose them for good reason, but that's not much help right now. I can lay out what it means, but mostly I need you to not expect me to be better than I am. More together than I am.
Third, there's some things you might want to know. Pandora's Box, that was Tosha and Barty and Raz, I'm near certain. And you should know, the rite I did the location for, the original sacrifice was supposed to be Seamus Finnigan, not his mother. (I had no idea it was her, or what they made him do until this past week.)
And there's a thing you should know. A number of the Council can't cast the Patronus properly. Reliably. Tosha couldn't until this past year. Raz had years of his life he couldn't. Not filled with happy memories, a lot of them. And there's ways that underlies everything they do. Everything they value.
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Date: 2014-08-05 01:36 am (UTC)I remember my own school days well enough. And I think it's a shame that people who could learn aren't allowed to, and that people are treated so badly, and -
Mostly, I feel guilty. About a lot of things.
And I think it's probably more sensible for me to sort that out in my own head before I talk much about it. Harry and Cedric and I talked a bit about Hermione, this week. I'm still thinking.
There's a lot of benefit in being underestimated, I've found. And in badger virtues. And both of them take rather a lot of people by surprise.
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Date: 2014-08-05 06:18 am (UTC)And if you're thinking of what's going on as happening to people, then yes, I can see how guilt would be a part of it.
Thinking helps. Talking does too. Harry and Cedric are good to start with, and if you're amenable, it might be good for you to get to know some of our people too, and put faces to some of those names. Once you're on more solid ground, that is.