I'm fine. Physically recovered, but I'm going to do whatever I can to avoid transfigured apparation in the future.
I don't know what to do with myself though. All my plans for helping the Order were for being on the outside. If I thought my shields would stand under the questioning I'd say we should Obliviate me and drop me somewhere.
Is that how you got out? No one's told me about half of it.
Still amazed I didn't splinch horribly.
No matter how determined you were, they'd break you. Eventually. Or at least make so you could never do anything to help us ever again. Out here, there's at least things you could do, right?
(That's what I'm telling myself, anyway. And Mum and Dad. Maybe if I say it some more, it will stick.)
After Dolohov left the office, Dumbledore overpowered the remaining enforcer, we were tossing the outer office to make it look like I'd resisted when a second enforcer came in, also defeated quickly. He went to see if we could rescue Professor Sprout while I finished in the outer office. She was... do you want any details? I'll just say it was impossible to bring her out. He transigured me into a rodent, transformed into some sort of raptor, picked me up, flew to the apparation boarder and popped to the safehouse in Hogsmeade. The linger effects from the curse meant that it completely wiped me out, the worst after effects since the first attempts to apparate me as I was recovereing.
I know they would, it's why I don't propose it, even though all the reports out of Hogwarts are that my disappearance is being called a kidnapping. I hope that will protect my family, but I'm worried they'll threaten them or take them into 'protective' custody such that I can't do anything as myself in the coming war without putting them at risk. If I thought we could save them all, especially my siblings and Jenny, I'd charge in. My parents are who they are, I wouldn't trust my mother with a secret about a Christmas present let alone rebellion. My father has always made his loyalty obvious, and he would have to be a prisoner. If that would save my siblings, I'd propose it. If anyone has checked on them, no one has said anything to me yet, but no one has reported that anything has happened to Jaspar so I they are either playing along with the kidnapping theory or the MLE actually believes it.
I just have to figure out what to do Out Here. Quidditch is obviously out, no more spying, can't go to work for the Twins. Maybe teaching flying in Moddey? Work with people on developing arms and armor? I must start doing something as soon as possible or I'm going to go barmy trapped in a safehouse. Whatever I do I have to conceal my identity to protect my family.
No details needed, please. No point in adding nightmares.
Hypatia. It all hit me last night, that she's gone, what that means. And we'd been She'd just - always been there, you know? All through school, all through now, stable and reliable and solid. Even when I was frustrated with her, she was good-hearted and caring, and - well. Her.
I'm so worried about my family too. Storm, most of all. And they all - they all must be so hurt. Thinking Mum and Dad are dead like that. What they think of me, I've no idea. And then whatever questioning they get.
All we can do is go forward. Hope we're doing the right thing.
Out Here. Well. Alice and I talked last night. There's things I can teach here. Mostly not astronomy, likely, but there's some practical bits that would help, the locational magics. And I keep thinking about the wards, the first ones, and how they did them. Things like that.
I got most of my library out. The telescope and book trunk. (They're both being very difficult right now, the shrinking charms seem to have done something odd, but they're here.) So at least I've got charts and ways to do research that might help.
And the cats. Who are not helpful to the research at all, but in other ways. And Alice found me a room that's all mine, so I can leave things out while I'm working on them. It's something.
Right. Things you could do. The kind of thing you were working on a few years ago, the masks, things like that. Charming objects. Even if you can't go work with the twins, they could come here, maybe?
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Date: 2014-12-14 06:46 pm (UTC)I don't know what to do with myself though. All my plans for helping the Order were for being on the outside. If I thought my shields would stand under the questioning I'd say we should Obliviate me and drop me somewhere.
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Date: 2014-12-14 07:00 pm (UTC)Still amazed I didn't splinch horribly.
No matter how determined you were, they'd break you. Eventually. Or at least make so you could never do anything to help us ever again. Out here, there's at least things you could do, right?
(That's what I'm telling myself, anyway. And Mum and Dad. Maybe if I say it some more, it will stick.)
Have you heard anything about your parents?
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Date: 2014-12-14 08:16 pm (UTC)I know they would, it's why I don't propose it, even though all the reports out of Hogwarts are that my disappearance is being called a kidnapping. I hope that will protect my family, but I'm worried they'll threaten them or take them into 'protective' custody such that I can't do anything as myself in the coming war without putting them at risk. If I thought we could save them all, especially my siblings and Jenny, I'd charge in. My parents are who they are, I wouldn't trust my mother with a secret about a Christmas present let alone rebellion. My father has always made his loyalty obvious, and he would have to be a prisoner. If that would save my siblings, I'd propose it. If anyone has checked on them, no one has said anything to me yet, but no one has reported that anything has happened to Jaspar so I they are either playing along with the kidnapping theory or the MLE actually believes it.
I just have to figure out what to do Out Here. Quidditch is obviously out, no more spying, can't go to work for the Twins. Maybe teaching flying in Moddey? Work with people on developing arms and armor? I must start doing something as soon as possible or I'm going to go barmy trapped in a safehouse. Whatever I do I have to conceal my identity to protect my family.
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Date: 2014-12-14 08:48 pm (UTC)Hypatia. It all hit me last night, that she's gone, what that means. And we'd been She'd just - always been there, you know? All through school, all through now, stable and reliable and solid. Even when I was frustrated with her, she was good-hearted and caring, and - well. Her.
I'm so worried about my family too. Storm, most of all. And they all - they all must be so hurt. Thinking Mum and Dad are dead like that. What they think of me, I've no idea. And then whatever questioning they get.
All we can do is go forward. Hope we're doing the right thing.
Out Here. Well. Alice and I talked last night. There's things I can teach here. Mostly not astronomy, likely, but there's some practical bits that would help, the locational magics. And I keep thinking about the wards, the first ones, and how they did them. Things like that.
I got most of my library out. The telescope and book trunk. (They're both being very difficult right now, the shrinking charms seem to have done something odd, but they're here.) So at least I've got charts and ways to do research that might help.
And the cats. Who are not helpful to the research at all, but in other ways. And Alice found me a room that's all mine, so I can leave things out while I'm working on them. It's something.
Right. Things you could do. The kind of thing you were working on a few years ago, the masks, things like that. Charming objects. Even if you can't go work with the twins, they could come here, maybe?